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When it was evening, Jesus sat down at the table with the Twelve. While they were eating, he said, 
"I tell you the truth, one of you will betray me."

Greatly distressed, each one asked in turn, 
"Am I the one, Lord?"
...
Judas, the one who would betray him, also asked, "Rabbi, am I the one?"
And Jesus told him, "You have said it."
Matthew 26:20-22, 25 NLT
The week before Jesus's death and resurrection kicks off with dinner. 
And whatever the conversation had been, it suddenly takes a different tack as Jesus drops this in:
"One of you will betray me".
This prompts so many questions;
Why did he make it open for everyone? Why put everyone through that self doubt?
More than self doubt but distress. They were all upset that after three years with their rabbi, their teacher, he's saying it could be me! 
It could be me who betrays him. 
I wonder if I was at that table what my response would be in that moment?
Am I the one? Could it be me?

And then Judas asks the same question "Rabbi, am I the one?"
Did he know then what he was going to do? 
Was it a genuine question? 
Or was this just more looking moral and good from Judas?

Either way Jesus told him it was him. 
"Yep it's you bro"

I wonder what was going on in Judas in that moment.
I bet no one was eating. 
What was going on in the hearts and minds of the other disciples?
If I was there, what would I be wanting to do to Judas? 
#easter
#somanyquestions

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